Your heart is spoken for

Alone, the endless beating of a drum
Louder than the sobbing of a soul.

Life, a desolate place of waste
Hungry for destruction and decay

Sorrow, a parasitic leech
That drains joy irreplaceable

Hope, a mocking laughter
Taunting endlessly, unreachable

Time, a steep icy path
Slipping away, not caring it was wasted


I have been positive and encouraging. I have been strong and had faith. I have trusted my God and he has delivered. But, that doesn't mean I too have days where I question, regret, feel sad or angry. Or days where I wish I could go back many years and start all over. God does not promise that we will never feel pain, or grief, or sorrow. He does not promise we will never cry, or scream, or be angry. He does not promise it will be easy, or that we will not stumble and maybe even fall at some point. He only promises that during all these things, he has us in his arms, gently holding our hearts while sharing our pain. No matter how secluded we feel, no matter how much loneliness settles upon us, God is with us, in us, carrying us, loving us, wiping our tears, and whispering "your heart is spoken for, you are mine, you are never alone".

119

I have survived. 119 days done and gone. I will survive the rest of the days yet to be counted too.

Chains

The chains you wrapped around me,
Are broken completely.
I do not give power to the words brought forth from your mouth,
They are meaningless.
I will not fear your presence and I will no longer look over my shoulder,
YOU are the coward.
I am not what you made me believe I had become
I am strength, love and hope.
I do not care to dwell in the misery you have caused me,
It has taught me to grow.
Your anger and hate will not steal another moment from me
I have forgiven.
The bitterness you laid upon my heart, my soul, my life..... just ashes
The wind has carried it away
Our past will not haunt me nor make me shed a tear
I will smile, I will laugh, I will live, I will love.

Live

Rejoice, for I am the one true God
Sing, let your voice light up my heavens
Pray, I hear every word and answer
Love, I command you to do this
Confess, I will forgive
Honor, do this to yourself as you do me
Live, now and for eternity in my promises

Heart

My heart Lord, is yours. Every blessing in my life is from you, and every sorrow in my life you carry for me.
My heart Lord, is yours. You forgive every transgression, and you rejoice when I repent. You make me spotless.
My heart Lord, is yours. You break down my enemies. You fortify my brothers and sister faith, so they have the strength to battle the unseen on my behalf.
My heart Lord, is yours. Let every word I speak, everything I do, and all that I am, reflect the wonder of the awesome God you are.
My heart is fully yours Lord.

Broken

Alone, in a dark corner of life, is where you stand. The light is all around, but the pain of your brokenness has hidden it from you. You are lost in the maze of your circumstances. The door to the good things I have planned for you, is right in front of you. But you haven't released the bonds of the past, therefore you can not reach to open the door. Your heart and spirit are sick and fragile. I have sent my love to you,to heal your wounds from the inside out. But, you will not remove the band-aids of selfishness and pride. You continue to rely on your own understanding and ignore mine. I can not fix the brokenness of what you have become, until you are ready for me to do so. Let me be the light, the door to happiness, the healer of your heart. Let my understanding be the stitches that hold you together. I will not only heal you, I will change you, and your heart will be fuller than you could ever imagine.
Jesus

Regret

I want to live each day without regret. To tell my kids that I love them, that my world would be barren without them. To tell my family that I love them, I am not whole without them. To tell my friends that I love them, my world would be a garden of thistles not flowers without them.

I want to live each day without regret. To have integrity and compassion to those I meet along the path that is my life. To have the courage to accept without judging, empathy for those I do not understand, and love for those who the world think undeserving.

I want to live each day without regret. To say the words that need to be said, and to never hold back my feelings for fear of what I might be told in return.

I want to live each day without regret. Without fear. Without pain. Without sorrow.

With love. With hope. With energy. With faith. With pride. With respect.